Sometimes I Regret My Need for Dark Fantasies

I have dark fantasies. Perhaps, that is why I am a submissive whore. Although, I have a master. He treats me well. Better than I deserve. So, sometimes I hunt on the dark net for a man who will rough me up more. Master is an old school dominant man into mostly bondage and spankings. But some days, I want force fucked, sodomized and even choked.

I think my darkness stems from my youth. My father was a violent man. He force fucked me from the time I was a young schoolgirl until I ran away from home as a teen. Every day he brutalized my asshole. Sometimes he would tie me to my bed for hours and I would piss the mattress. Daddy treated me like a street hooker not his daughter.

And my ex-husband turned out to be just as brutal as my daddy. So, my past is full of men who liked to explore their rape phone sex fantasies with me. But they were not fantasies for long. I thought I left that life behind me, but sometimes I just crave a man who can be violent towards me like my father and ex-husband. But master is old and respectable, so I get on fetish sites and look for evil men like you.

Last night I met Oliver. Scary man, just like my father. I knew I was in trouble. But it was trouble I welcomed. And trouble I paid for too. He smacked me around and choked me. He even fucked my ass super hard until it prolapsed. Today, I can barely walk. And I have bruises all over my body. Perhaps, I need to be careful what I ask for.