Dark fantasies

I am so jealous of Michelle Knight she got to live out one of the many Dark fantasies that I have rattling around in my head when I am getting myself off. The Cleveland abduction movie I have saved on my Tivo. I wish I was Michelle being the slave of a sadistic Master. Except I would not fight it as she did I would embrace it with a soaking super sloppy cunt. I would thank him for his abuse and the use of my body. I would beg every day for a beating and never ever try to escape. Right after I saw the movie for the first time I had a wicked dream that night that it was me he kidnapped. And just like the movie, he hogtied me suspended in the air from the ceiling. In my dream when he came back he released the ropes and drops me on my face causing my nose to break and bleed. I was still hogtied when he started kicking me. He started at my head kicking me working his way down my body to my boobs. Still kicking me relentlessly hard in the stomach and cunt. I was gasping for air and screaming in terrible pain. But my cunt was a sloppy mess and as he kicked me my cunt juices splattered all over his boot. This was pissing him off and he took a knife and sliced off my clit. Blood was gushing everywhere and the pain was more than I could handle. I had a dirty sock in my mouth muffling my screams. He enjoyed my pain and was getting off on it and I thought for sure he was going to shove his hard cock in me but instead he shoved the knife in my cunt and started fucking me hard cutting and slicing me from the inside. I kept cumming and squirting with every slice of the knife. Pain is what makes me cum and blood is what makes me squirt. I woke up and my sheets were a sloppy drenched mess and I was completely satisfied. I wish I could find somebody to play out this Taboo role play with me in real time and not just in my dreams.