One of My Dark Fantasies

I have dark fantasies about violent prostitution. I am not a hooker. I am a soccer mom with a drug habit. I trade my body for coke. I guess I am a hooker. Sometimes, I get myself in sticky situations. Then sometimes I get high and wish for pain. I have this one fantasies that stems from a movie I saw as a younger girl. It is an 80s film called The Hitcher. In the movie, Jennifer Jason Leigh plays a waitress who gets torn in two by semi trucks. The bad guy in the film ties her arms to the rigs of two trucks and takes the bricks off the gas pedals and she slowly rips apart. It was a gruesome yet erotic thought. That may be the moment I realized I was a submissive whore. I know it was the moment I knew I harbored deep dark fantasies that girls my age should not have, LOL. I became obsessed with horror movies and snuff porn. Now over 20 years later, I am getting gangbanged, abused and tortured. I am a pain slut working on fulfilling all her dark desires like being torn in two. I just need your help to snuff me out.